This stress is a mess

Coming into the midterms makes me worried and stressed because I already have to make sure my grades are kept up and all my work is done but I also have to study for this test and hope I do well on it. I work so there is hardly any time for much but when I do have time I do all my work. Trying to fit midterms in is very difficult and when it comes to testing my grades arent always that good because I panic when I test. I try to do so much at once and sometimes I forget how to pace myself. I end up upset at myself because I know that I know the work but it doesnt always come out on test.

Do music videos affect the way you feel about particular songs?

Not all but some music videos do affect the way I feel about a particular song. Some music writers make a song seem like it has a particular meaning and then when you see the music video it is has totally different meaning sending you a different message about the song. For instance, the song called Please Dont Leave Me by Pink. If you heard this song it gives you the impression that this song is about a woman that is in love and she's beggining the man she is in love with to come back, implying that she loves him a lot. The whole meaning of the song changes when you see the video, instead of her asking him not to leave her. she is basically forcing him to stay with her, basically telling him that he wont be able to leave her even if he wanted to. She torchers him and keeps him tied up which is a totally different view of what the song sounded like.

This is just my first semester in college and I am ready to jump out of a window. There have been multiple problems with the financial aid and the process of getting into school is way too long. I have not had my family help me with college so I have been doing everything on my own. It is very difficult to keep up with everything at once and I'm losing my mind but I'm trying to stay sane. The worst thing about college right now would have to be the bookstore or might I say the never ending line to get your books. I have waited hours in a line with my anxiety acting up in a hot room for nothing at all. I am a new student and I was never told that in order to get my books I would have to complete an authorization page. All you have to do on that page is basically click submit I mean come on I think they could have done it for the students and on top of that I have to wait 24 hours it’s just absurd.
I already have to worry about where to park my car but now I have to worry about getting my books on time. I am trying to start off good in all my classes but it sometimes seems impossible because we already are given homework assignments and I don't even have my books yet. I think this whole process of getting into school and getting our books is so stupid. They make our lives more difficult than it already is being a new student but they make us have to complete little forms and pages of things that they can complete themselves. Having to wait in every line for a long amount of time is pointless especially when you have classes that you need to get to, appointments, or jobs. I tried to get my English book but they ran out so now I have to go on Monday to go get my books.